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Kim Burgess's avatar

3ams are tough! I am hooked on Nothing Much Happens podcast. Really lovely gentle stories about the sort of village we all wish we lived in ❤️ xx

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Kate Harrison's avatar

I’ll look at that one! Thanks for the tip xx

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Victoria's avatar

Outspoken, brave, and confident—isn't that what you're already doing through your writing and sharing all this with us, Kate? I'd like to add that articulating your 3 a.m. Wide-awakeness offers a vulnerable and confident window into your experience. Sharing your table with the women who have inspired you feels like a meaningful seance—drawing on their strength. A lovely read and fun to see the video!

I haven't tried it but a friend said Max Richter's Album 'Sleep' helped her. xo

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Kate Harrison's avatar

Thanks so much, Victoria - I love the image of a seance. One to call on in future. xxx

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Jane Lythell Clarke's avatar

Moving. Thank you dear Kate. XX

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Jean Lesley Thomas's avatar

All your posts hit home with me, but I’m so thankful for them as they give me inspiration and keep me trying to be positive. Having been told to enjoy the summer with my family and then start my remaining chemo option weekly in September I’m feeling somewhat vulnerable now. No cure, just a chance of a little longer! Keep your positivity up for your own benefit and for the rest of your fellow sufferers. I’ll think of you at my own 3:00am sessions! xx

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Kate Harrison's avatar

Oh Jean, sorry I didn’t comment sooner on this. I think positivity can never exist in isolation, we all have down days and they’re part of rebuilding. Sending you long, gorgeous, sunny days. xxx

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Laura Wilkinson's avatar

Another funny and incredibly moving post, Kate. Past lives haunt and comfort us in the witching hours. Looking forward to seeing you tomorrow. X

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Mary's avatar

And just in case you happen to be awake now, just letting you know that you're not alone. It's 2.51am and I'm awake, watching telly xxx

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Mary's avatar

Fantastic post, Kate. Thanks for sharing and all your 3am activities are so relatable - I found myself nodding in recognition, though my phone game of choice is currently Township. I've made a little town called Cosyville and found myself playing it lots at various times of night when I've been awake at 3am (can recommend it as a game!). Sending love and all the best wishes for the next dose x

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Kate Harrison's avatar

So glad I’m not the only one - Cosyville sounds like bliss. xxx

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Rowan Coleman's avatar

Great post, my darling

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tamsin cottis's avatar

Lovely post, Kate. Sorry to hear about the 3ams though . That’s tough. I met Crysse on an Arvon course decades ago. A lovely person - sort of fierce in a good way . I remember her v warmly . Sending love and good thought for upcoming treatments and calmer nights xx

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Kate Harrison's avatar

Yes, fierce in a good way is perfect. Thank you for being here xxx

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Bridget Whelan's avatar

Strong, brave, warm & fuzzy (in a good way) post, Kate. And thank you for sharing your parents wedding film. I think you have your mother's lovely smile.

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Kate Harrison's avatar

Thanks so much, Bridget - I am shocked in a good way by how alike we look at certain angles. xx

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Mark Davis's avatar

A heartfelt post - you've had some strong women in your life. The wide awake thing sucks - hope that improves for you. Outspoken, brave and confident seem like good traits to aim for! Hugs xo

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Kate Harrison's avatar

Thanks, Mark - sorry not to comment sooner, you know how it is. xxx

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Old Codger Steve's avatar

Lovely post As a prostate cancer guy I am no stranger to struggling with sleeping my dripadedoda nights gives me 3/4 wake up calls and I have often found it difficult to get back to sleep. I was prescribed solifenacin to limit loo visits but have just come off it because of side effects( eye pressure and morning blurriness) and my glaucoma. But I did absolutely love its drowsiness and return to sleep effect. So its back to dripadedoda awake nights and trying to quell my active thoughts

That's a very long way to get to my point.

One thing I do find helpful is Radio 3 and the mindful sleep mix. It is distracting and calming maybe worth a try

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Kate Harrison's avatar

Steve, apologies for not replying sooner, I got a bit overwhelmed with everything. Argh, that juggling of meds sounds so familiar, it’s picking the least worst options, isn’t it. Sending you the most restful of zzzzzs xx

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Old Codger Steve's avatar

Lovely post As a prostate cancer guy I am no stranger to struggling with sleeping my dripadedoda nights gives me 3/4 wake up calls and I have often found it difficult to get back to sleep. I was prescribed solifenacin to limit loo visits but have just come off it because of side effects( eye pressure and morning blurriness) and my glaucoma. But I did absolutely love its drowsiness and return to sleep effect. So its back to dripadedoda awake nights and trying to quell my active thoughts

That's a very long way to get to my point.

One thing I do find helpful is Radio 3 and the mindful sleep mix. It is distracting and calming maybe worth a try

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Old Codger Steve's avatar

Lovely post As a prostate cancer guy I am no stranger to struggling with sleeping my dripadedoda nights gives me 3/4 wake up calls and I have often found it difficult to get back to sleep. I was prescribed solifenacin to limit loo visits but have just come off it because of side effects( eye pressure and morning blurriness) and my glaucoma. But I did absolutely love its drowsiness and return to sleep effect. So its back to dripadedoda awake nights and trying to quell my active thoughts

That's a very long way to get to my point.

One thing I do find helpful is Radio 3 and the mindful sleep mix. It is distracting and calming maybe worth a try

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